The straw that broke the camel's back!!!

DISCLAIMER: THIS IS ME VENTING AT THE MOMENT.....CAUTION!!! VERY VULGAR LANGUAGE!!!
I feel like shit right now. I can't even describe whats going through my mind right now....I feel like I've been PLAYED for the last year and a half. So this guy Vice Versa I've been talking to for the longest for like a year and a half if you want to be exact. I just got off the phone with him about 30 minutes ago and I can never say I've been more mad and disgusted in my life. I'm even more disgusted with myself that I let this bullshit go on for as long as I did. I'm not going to go into detail about the entire conversation because it takes up too much time and I'm going to get really pissed off if I try to write down what that bitch ass nigga said to me. I just give a few details....BISEXUALITY, RESPECT, SEX, THE IDEA OF CALLING ME A BITCH, and OH YEAH HIMSELF. The conversation ended with him saying who he was and had been fucking that he had no respect for me at all. I hung up. I tired of the bullshit. I starting to believe that him continuously calling me and his fucking disrespecting me every chance he gets is a curse against me for praying that he would come back into my life. I fucking regret that. I wish I had never prayed about at all if I knew what it was going to cost me....my dignity, integrity, and my respect as a BLACK woman. Men especially BLACK men feel they can call females bitches and hoes because its ok. Its the way to prove your a man...that BULLSHIT if you ask me. To me that makes you a coward and a BITCH yourself for even call a female that and to think that its ok because you call everyone else that...what kind of mess is that. BULLSHIT thats what it is. Just to think I been letting this nigga back in and out of my life. I told myself a month ago if he never call me again that I would be ok...I would live because I've experienced heartache before and I know what its like to feel like you care for someone and they don't give a fuck about you. Its just about the PUSSY and thats it. I would if I was to go around screwing every man that walked up and down my block that I wouldn't be called a HOE....I think not. That seems to be what niggas are all about nowdays. Hitting it and quitting it. If I was to do it what would that prove...I'm one of them? This may sound like I'm on some man hating triad right now but I'm not...I just voicing how I feel right now...I love my black men...I really do what yall need to get ya shit together be real with a female and quit putting on this front like yall really feeling us when yall just trying to get in the panties....its not cute and with what's being contracted now days...that shit and healthy or kosher for that matter.
On the real....thats what I have to say right now... wait its not
I really do care about Vice Versa in fact I think I love his trick ass but I will NOT allow myself to be at the hands of his misgynistic ways...that man fucks everything that was walks up and down the block and at the grocery store. That shit aint kosher and or healthy that nasty ass nigga has nerves to ask me if I had an STD test....Shit I should be the one asking him that!! I've been sex free for the last 4 months and counting and I can happily say that I'm DISEASE FREE!!! I That shits gross and unsanitary...Was I that STUPID not to see it...I...I...I... I'm speechless and I feel like crying.
I'm out.